Cultivating Presence

When I think about being really present and showing up for my life, so many feelings show up! Pride, excitement, joy, fear, guilt, love! Life is the most beautiful experience of ups and downs and everything in between. I feel this fullness in my body and my soul, and a quietness to my mind. A deep knowing that I'm exactly where I’m meant to be. I am exactly who I am meant to be. Genuine and authentic, a messy masterpiece. But it wasn’t always this way. Have you ever felt like you weren’t showing up as your true self? That you were just showing up as the person you thought you should be. Because I was there once, and that disconnect led me to depression, anxiety, years of thinking I was never enough, and could never achieve what I wanted, and eventually burnout. I remember sitting there and feeling like even when I did everything right, nothing was working out. After trying all the things, I decided that there must be something wrong with me. That everybody else just had some ability I didn’t have or couldn’t find within me. I honestly didn’t know where to go from there or what to do next. Most days, I didn’t even want to think about it, let alone take action. Life started becoming the same routine over and over again, with little excitement or joy, just the same old, same old. It felt as if life was wasting away, I was wasting away. But there was a small part of me that knew that this couldn’t be all there was. That I wasn't put on this planet to live the same day over and over again until I died. But how, and what that looked like, was farther than I could see, much less take a step towards. And that’s why I have created this workshop, because I remember being there, and I remember not knowing where to start. 

In this workshop, we will explore together all the patterns that we fall into that aren’t really ours. The ones that we use over and over again to try and help us feel safe and secure, but end up just holding us back from living up to our full potential. My workshop isn’t about hating those patterns or trying to destroy them, but about understanding them and the roles they play in our lives. And then deciding from there, how to move forward. What to bring with us and what we want to release. What parts of us make us feel present and full, and those which leave us empty and drained, not from a place of self-judgement but from a place of self-love.

So, if you are asking if this workshop is for me, I’ll ask you these questions:

Are you showing up as your true self, as the person you want to be? 

Are there patterns that you are repeating and just can’t let go of? 

Are you suffering from self-judgment and criticism?

Do you say yes when you want to say no? 

Are you present to the ups and downs of life without feeling like you’re going to get dragged under, fall back, or burn out?

Do you feel like even when you’re doing all the right things, you still fall short?

Do you have trouble trusting yourself and your decisions?

Do you find your mind wandering instead of enjoying the now?

I know from experience that these questions can be really hard to answer, but if any of these resonate with you, and you feel like there's some room for growth, I invite you to let this workshop be your starting point for your self-exploration. Let us explore together, because if I’ve learnt anything throughout my journey, it's that you don’t have to do it alone, and we heal faster when we heal together! 

If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to reach out here.

This journey is something that was meant to be experienced fully, and to do that we need to be present for it. I know for myself that the moments that felt the hardest where the ones I thought I had to conquer alone. Now I realize that part of that experience is sharing ours. I would love it if you joined me in this group experience and share your journey with us!